Tough Course up the Mountain

Is this my 'mountain series'... going concurrently with my 'lamb chop series'? LOL~

Ever since my great 'mountain top' experience... a lot has been going through in my spiritual walk. Yes, being up the mountain top is great. But where our duty is, is down the valley.

Having accepted that... or commanded by our dearest Father, I eventually obeyed. But back down this valley ain't no easy walk at all. Lately, I have been experiencing a series of questions and problems that was halting my spiritual journey.

Turning to Him day and night, committing everything to Him didn't seem to work. As life got worse, my prayers got more desperate. Although certain things seemed to be working out great for me (having my experiments finally working and going home early daily), this major problem could not be solved. Still, all I could do was to soak myself in God's presence (advice from Elysaa), and trust that He will take it from me in His own timing.

However, days passed and signs were shown. And I began to believe much greater in the power of prayers. I used to never understand the purpose of praying... but now I do. Each time a prayer is said, the effect can be seen immediately. Could be a huge effect, or a minor effect. But somewhere, somehow, you will feel the tiniest change, probably in the depths of your hearts.

This whole week, no matter how I sought that 'mountain top' experience, it never came. I became more desperate and dejected.. until Elysaa told me, "There are many different mountain tops. Also, sometimes we are unable to meet God due to certain un-resolved issues within us..."

That struck me. This major problem I was facing could be the reason why I couldn't meet God once again on that 'mountain top'. On Friday during worship once again, I was brought to see a certain vision from God. He showed me a mountain, but not the mountain top. Then as the vision was zoomed into me from a 'first person view', I saw the steep slope that I had to climb. This mountain depicted my spiritual journey and the task I had at hand.

Probably I have been avoiding this task for half my life. And right now, I sense that God is telling me, "Enough avoiding and I've heard your prayer. This is the way to solve it. OVERCOME this problem.... because if you do not overcome this problem, you will never progress. And not only that you won't progress, you will start to slack off, and slide back down the path you came from. Over come this, and the road ahead will be much easier than before, with all the goodness packed for you."

However, I looked up at the task right ahead of me... and this is what I saw:




An inverted slope that I had to overcome. How was I to climb such a slope? I don't know.





But this time, it felt like God telling me I had to do this. Having overcome this is going to open the doors to His purposes for me.

I couldn't confirm if this was also part of my own imagination or a message from God. But after praise and worship, out of the blue, Elysaa was inspired to depict the rice and mountain 'scenario'. That got me to receive the second 'mountain' message from God. How was I to overcome that inverted cliff? With faith... I guess. All I can do now is trust in Him to pull me up, because with only my own power, I don't think I can do this.

And the third confirmation came after we were dispersed into our bible discussion groups. Elysaa gave each and everyone of the girls little notes of encouragement and on the one she gave me showed a man standing on top of a mountain with VICTORY. I was so shocked to see this, for it confirmed what I saw and heard from the vision God was showing me.

"Overcome this, and the road ahead will be much easier than before...."

Much to my amazement, I happened to turn the paper around and what I saw was a picture almost exactly the same as the vision I saw. The INVERTED slope.

What more can I say, but confirm that this is God's message? In my prayer, I asked for an obvious sign... and our faithful God has never ceased to be faithful... I'm am so touched by this, and I'm writing this to share with all of you out there... how faithful our God is, and this wonderful message He is telling me.

Although right now I'm not able to go up that 'mountain' to enjoy the feeling I once did, I feel that there is another peak of the mountain that the Lord is keeping for my journey once I overcome this inverted slope. And of course even overcoming this does not signify that the journey after will be easy, but it will be without the weight of the current burden I am carrying.

With that once again, I've would like to testify for the faithfulness of our God... and the mercifulness that He has shown to me over and over again, despite my numerous occasions of doubt.

Thank you, Lord.