Conversation with God in OC 2009

With much expectation and prayers waiting for answers, I arrived Philip Island, Melbourne, a place where God changed my life. He revealed to me how small my problems were during OC2007 and I committed my life unto Him during that OC, I got baptised in the Holy Spirit in that OC, I also experienced God's touch during that OC, and seems like God used all these experience trying to tell me something in OC2009.

Earlier this year I have been going through a period of spiritual dryness and I have reached a point where I am almost walking away from God, God as well has been doing surgery in my heart, and I have been going through a time of molding and seeking. Therefore one of my expectation for this OC is to really grow in my relationship with God and to see Him move in our lives, and being a faithful God, He has answered all my prayers in this OC.

During praise and Worship section, I was seeking God as usual, but something unusual happened, seems like God is talking to me.

-> Father, I can't see you, I have been seeking and I can't find you.
->Son you first have to clean your glasses because all this time you have been seeing through all the mud that's on the glasses.

As God was saying that, I started to see shadow before me, and I know it is God.

->here you are...I finally have found you now.
->I have always been with you Son, I have never left you, remember that I told you in a dream before? "I will always be with you and never leave you". remember?
->Yes father, I remember it very clearly...

And since then, I have gained a passion of singing P&W unto God, I have not stopped singing during this 3 days in OC, I sing when I walk, I sing when I sit in the car, I sing when I am bored. And I just love singing P&W!! Hehe...
I also realised how God has been walking with me through my ups and downs, Thank you Lord.

And in another P&W section, I sensed that God was saying to me:
-> Son, remember this room where you first fall in love with me?
and I started praying to God to ask him to renew this feeling of 1st love with God and I just felt so refreshed in Him and the Joy of God filled me! I walked in being a bit emotional, and walked out smiling and singing to God...! How awesome is HE!

The theme of this OC is moving in the spirit, and indeed I have expectation to really move with God's holy spirit, and during one ministering section, I stepped out in faith and started praying for brothers and sisters in Judah5, and I laid hand on people and I could feel what God wants me to say to them, and I confirm with them after my prayer, and almost everyone I prayed for confirmed what I prayed for them was true. Also we have prayed for a sister that has back pain, we prayed, and nothing seem to have happened, but we prayed a second time, and this time I sensed that God has touched her, and I asked her if she is healed, and the answer is yes! no more back pain! And I realise how important faith is in terms of moving in the spirit, with faith, all things are possible with God!

And finally, OC has ended and I have arrived home safely, but I really don't want to just return to my "normal" life, I want to sense God's presence like I did in OC. So Tuesday morning, I put this Dvd I bought previously into my computer, it's a Hillsongs P&W DVD, after singing through 2 praise songs, when It comes to a worship song, I started to ask God for His presence on me, and just when they sing this song "with all I am"-> 'Into your hands, I commit again, with all I am, for you Lord, I'll walk with you, in the palm of your hand, and I AM YOURS, FOREVER' just through the verse, I started weeping in God's presence, as I sing through the rest of the song, I fell down on my knee and face down on the ground, and I became speechless in God's presence, it's so strong and I cried as if I was a baby, I have not cried like this for a very long time...I was just so touched in God's presence that seems like everything else doesn't matter anymore, it's a weird sensation where I feel that I am in awe, yet I am crying, it's like you have lost strength on your body...
And as the Dvd continue to play, I started speaking in tongue and asked God for some answers, and God just told me this "Believe in me, I will give you the best in the best timing" I believe it is true for many of us, we always ask God for directions and stuff, but we don't seem to trust God fully sometimes, for those who are seeking for answers...

Matthew 6:33
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

And through all these experience with God, I start to understand what it means to be a friend of God, our relationship with God should be a two way thing, not just you telling God what happened to you, and what you want, but also you should allow God to tell you what He wants, and allow Him to speak into our lives.

God bless